"Sometimes you meet someone, and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you're in love or you're partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don't know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something."

É isso que eu quero pra nós.. nos 365 dias do ano.. se possível ainda mais.. eu sei que nós não podemos ter isso juntas sempre.. mas eu vou continuar lutando pra que isso aconteça com frequência. Então enquanto nós não podemos fazer isso juntas.. fisicamente.. vamos ser felizes mesmo assim? 

 


So I've been thinking about our messed up little situation lately. I thought about a question I would ask you if I'd ever see you again. I couldn't get it you out of my head.

"Who lost who"? Did I lose you? Did you lose me? Was I really too 'pushy' that day? (sorry). I just really wanted to hold you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
I miss talking to you for hours and listening to your dramas. I miss your laugh.
I miss hearing your soft voice over the phone. I miss you. I miss so much about you. I really wish you've had given me a chance. I lost my best friend. I hope you're happy and have friends that can love you and care about you like I could. 
I still wonder how your hug feels like.. I miss you -- and I know you miss me too. I know you do. I know it. I feel it.

We had something beautiful. So beautiful (that I fucked? yeah). But it can never be erased.

I don't want this to seem like an apologize letter. I mean, I know I'll probably forget all about you. (not at all)

But that doesn't answer my question. Who lost who? What caused this great distance? Well. I gave it a lot of thought and came to this conclusion.
 
I didn't lose you and you didn't lose me. Not at all. Because on that horrible dark day..

  
we lost each other!